my thought process...

Yesterday , I was having a conversation with a friend.Since I was a part of the conversation , it was of shameful intellectual standards .I was talking about my haircut . ( I think I look cute after the haircut. I guess everyone found it cute ).

Suddenly , the talk moved onto a rather philosophical plane. Within a matter of minutes , the haircut talk developed into an animated discussion and my friend asked me this

" Have you ever thought what kind of person are you?".

I promptly coughed , murmered something useless , and then started talking about something else .The conversation ended soon after. ( Itne heavy questions poochegi to end karni hee padegi na ) . But then I got back to my room , jumped in my bed , drew my bedsheet over the eyes , stared into the darkness and thought

"What kind of person am I?"

I guess thinking about oneself once in a while clears up things , and then why should only celebrities get to talk about themselves and their favorite colors and favorite dishes ?
I talk about what I think of myself as a person .

I read it somewhere that,

"The most uncomfortable person in this world is a person who is not himself."

I tore away the page carrying this quote I went home and pasted this sheet on the wall of my room .

But over the years , I have tried to practise what this quote said . So I have learnt to listen to myself . I have learnt to develop a sense of self security so I dont need to do things which make me 'cool' or 'happening'or 'smart'.

Improvement is something that belongs to my priority list , but pretending to please your senses is not exactly on my things-to-do list. In short , I am uncool , stuck-in-old-times , and strange to a lot of people , but I have learnt to be myself .

I am beginning to understand the importance of searching for happiness in the right places . Achievements , salaries , accolades , shallow relations serve as a rocket fuel for the ego , but an ego boost is as different from happiness .

I am learning from life , that things change , people change , and clinging onto anything is selfish and useless .

Anyway , I have already destroyed every limit of self indulgance tonight by talking about myself so long , so I will wrap up now.

Posted in: Life,Myself