First of all , I am not sad . I have a decent career taking off , a family I love , friends I love, and my moto ming bluetooth headset I am beginning to love. So it would only take a couple of Himesh Reshammiya's CDs to make me feel sad . On a related note , I yesterday saw the video of "teri yaad na aye" from Himesh on MTV . The guy is crying lakes in the video . I had this urge to actually reach into the screen , wipe his face with a tissue and say "Na munna na , sab theek ho jayega ."
But even though I am not sad , I have a little thought nibbling on me this morning . The more I live , the more I realise two things . First , I still don't have a 'purpose' in my life . And second , now that I have lived some more , I have lesser time to find that purpose .It is like 3 years back I was "Chill yar" . I am only 18 . Only Lord Krishna found a purpose in life at that age." But Now I am like "Umm . I am almost 21 . And I think I will find a bigger meaning in life right after a little nap. "
Sure , I have phases of 'being driven' in my life . Like I wake up and say 'Right . Today I will call the Hutch Customer care people and tell them they should be looting banks in ski masks and not calling themselves a telecom service provider for all the scary things they are doing to my connection'.
" Oh right . Now all the things that seemed stupid and mundane to me make sense".I don't have a purpose which unites all the things I do and drives me and makes me say "Oh yeah , so this is what it was all about". In fact , that's the problem bugging me right now . I don't know what's it all about .Maybe there isn't supposed to be a purpose , a bigger meaning in life . Just live , have fun , eat good chinese food , watch movies , and of course , there is a moto ming headset .
Starting a Monday with such things I can almost imagine Lord Krishna sitting up there on a cloud and shaking his head and telling me "Take it easy kid ".
You know naa what that means for a working chap ?
So gulp some sandwiches and a hot coffee and everything will make sense & start working .
All the kids please get up and clap because my breakfast is finally here . And nothing gets in between a hungry me and a hot breakfast . So now yours truly will step back into the big bad corporate world . Let's pacify the rats in my tummy now . As for the purpose of life ...umm....pehle kha leti hoon !